Quick Writing #12 (Feelings)
I’m starting to feel alone. Even with a number of people standing right beside me. No one really understands what I’m going through. I did a project in English class where we had to write poems about our life. Mine was dark, deep & sad; because that’s how I feel. The 2nd part of the project was to grade someone else’s work. About 12 people graded my work and left sticky notes of their comments. Each and every single one of them said that if this was really the way I feel about my life, this poem doesn’t express my personality in school. This is true, only because they know the fun-loving Jaylyn. They have no idea how many times I’ve thought of things that has happened to me in my life and just wanted to start bawling in the corner of my classroom. My friends have seen me cry before. But that was because I lost a wallet and I was afraid of getting in trouble. They’ve never really seen me cry till my eyes are red & puffy.
Another reason I’m sad is probably because I barely have friends anymore. I mean, I have friends but not ones that I can count on & go places with; and I can count those on my 5 fingers. Like, the closer my birthday is getting, the faker people are turning. I guess people just weren’t raised with the manners and advice I was brought upon. My mom always told me, “Don’t tell anyone anything that you wouldn’t want the world to know. Some people just use it later on for their advantage.” I will carry her word of advice until I’m 6 feet under. Her advice, more than anyone else’s is so relevant. All the time. She’s the one person I know who won’t ever judge me, and will always be a true friend. She’s like the bestfriend I’ve always wanted but never had. (Feelings)